today i lost my car.

today is also the first day i've cried in a long, long time.

I mean like actual crying, actual tears running down my face, can't speak and hard time breathing.

why is my life such a stupid mess all the time.

ack

so i haven't written anything in a long time on here... also haven't been active online at all aside from twitter, which i mostly do from my phone now anyway... haha. School's back in full swing and I have an amazing set of classes this year. Digital video art is pretty much the best thing ever hahaha. I can't wait for that class to completely get started.
Most of my IASC classmates rule or whatever, so hanging out with them rules, plus there are only three girls in the class so the drama is sooo minimal and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Stoked on lunch time. a 6 hour class sucks. :(

i'm so glad...

that i only have one ex boyfriend. because the one i have is a complete and total IDIOT. Rude, inconsiderate, racist, everything. you name it. here, a conversation we had just today.

1:30pm Josh
i'm sorry for you ariel
that you're canadian
and you don't know any black people
1:33pm Ariel
are you stupid?
1:33pm Josh
are you stupid for thinking i'm serious?
you already answered me.
i celebrated my independence day by hanging out with all the black people that woldn't be here today if we hadn't caught them and sold them
god bless 'merica
1:35pm Ariel
you're never going to grow up and get a clue are you.
1:36pm Josh
you're never going to gain a sense of humor in replace of your inner bitch, are you?
and i'm on salary nigga, when will you grow up?
1:36pm Ariel
salary = being an adult? its a state of mind.
oh, and not being a racist bastard also hekps.
1:37pm Josh
salary actually means obtaining a set income for a fiscal year
but hey
you went to community college
1:37pm Ariel
i went to college
there is no such thing as community college.
1:38pm Josh
ah yes
i forgot
canadians call community college, college
1:38pm Ariel
i am now in university, building on that.
1:38pm Josh
and real college
university
1:38pm Ariel
once i'm done that, i may go to grad school.
1:38pm Josh
my canadian is a little bad
sick
get dem dollas
and yes ariel
i'm racist
because 9 out of 10 of my best friends are brown
and i burn crosses on the weekends
did you get the new brokencyde album?
1:40pm Ariel
unlike what you are doing with your life, i have a plan that is going to get me somewhere in life. so i can live comfortably and not have to worry about anything money related. which will be lovely and a lot more than anyone else could ever offer me.
and no. they suck.
1:40pm Josh
lol
they are amazingly terrible
it astounds me how something like that can exist
and that's cool, i'm guessing your main motivation is to get away from your parents
that was mine
1:41pm Ariel
no, it isnt
i love living at home.
i love my parents.
1:41pm Josh
i just completed culinary school and work at an upscale french restaurant as a sous chef in downtown st. louis
yeah
i love my parents to death too
but i couldn't stand them continuing to take care of me
i wanted to be completely independent
1:42pm Ariel
when i'm done school and have a good job i'm probably only going to move out to somewhere close.
1:42pm Josh
that sounds good
you're near everything though
so that works
my parents live a good hour and a half from any big city
i'm actually moving to san francisco june of next year and am starting my job at a ralph fiat restaurant in the bay area

etc etc. do you see why he is an EX-boyfriend? yeah.

oh jeez,

my bad. I've not updated for a month. I'm sorry. I've got like... three journals to update. my LJ which is more private... my tumblr, which is for fun things like pictures and quotes and stuff... and this one. which is for... well tbh mostly just following and reading other people's journals, which i do every other day or so. So yeah. updates don't much happen on here simply because nothing ever happens in my life/if something does happen, i tweet almost immediately. which makes this blog pretty much irrelevant. oh well. i'm sorry but not really.

Basically my life is work, sleep, work, sleep etc. there is literally nothing going on in my life. it kinda rules, but it kinda doesnt! whateveerrrrrrr

this isn't the first time I've blogged these lyrics

"Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,

And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?

So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.

It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions

And to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.

You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.

And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is

A reminder of what I'll never have

I'll never have... I'll never...

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.

But this table for one has become bearable.

I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you."

take this to heart

"all i want from you

is time to explain

i swear you don't have to be afraid

all i want from you

just give me the first chance

because second chances never matter

all i want from you

is just a little more than this

you can talk to me i promise

all i want from you

is your smile

            i couldn't lie to myself

            saying you don't mean a thing

            a year and a half long crush

            you're impossible to get over

all i want from you

is for you to understand

i'll cross my fingers and hope you can

all i want from you

is for you to hold my hand

run your fingers down my arm

that's all i want from you

just take this to heart"

thank you charles leslie, for these words.

because they are so simple and so amazing and they make me think

and I have hope. a lot of hope for the future. i know it's going to be amazing. I just have to wait it out. and i know i can because it'll be worth it. I don't know what "it" is, or will be, but it'll be something. and it will be worth it. i am excited for the future. so much. and i'm going to love it.

sighh

some days i wish i had someone to be soinlove with.

you know?

it would be nice.

:D

it is BEAUTIFUL outside.
and I'm going to have to write essays REALLY fucking soon.
I don't wanna.
not. at. all.

shut up

nights like these (at home alone on a saturday) really make me wish i had someone.
and i hate that likealot because i don't NEED anyone.
I'm so strong and capable and happy on my own
these nights make me doubt myself.
and I don't like doubting myself.

there is so much more that i would like to pour out but that is NOT what this is for.

hrmmmm

my legs hurt. from riding.
twitter? hi, please be back on my phone for good now
it makes life so much more fun.
horse show sunday, stoked!

rut rut rut

i need something new in my life
and someone's offered me something that could be that thing
it'll take a lot of time and patience
but I think i could do it.
it's exciting really.

survey thing because i haven't blogged in a few days

Username: airairariel

Why did you pick it?: i actually have no idea...

Who did you first subscribe to?: nerimon. imagine that. then smosh. then jimmy0010 then musicfromblueskies. then the rest is history.

Who did you most recently subscribe to?: simplyplainethan

What does your last text message say?: "k"

Do you have any goals?: to continue to be as awesome as possible. and go to the UK soon.

What was the last thing you bought?: vanilla latte.

Describe the person who posted this using one line?: erm, a youtuber?

Are you excited about anything?: YOUTUBEOGGAN PART 2!!!!

Do you have a crush? yes and everyone knows about it.

Have you ever been drunk?: yeah.

Who was the first Youtuber you met in real life?: JDM525 at 888, followed by 3sixty5days and Drakesizzle. I drove them to the science centre!

Who was the last Youtuber you met in real life?: Kiara and Jacqueline.

Do you pefer day or night?: night night gnight!.

Are you a member of any collab channels?: DailyRambles lol.

Do you have a secret account?: not one that i actively use.

Do you believe in God?: Nope.

Which youtuber do you talk to the most?: Caithead, massaar6, luckynumb3r7, mickiebee14 hmmm....

Which Youtuber do ou think makes the best videos?: musicfromblueskies or iianardo :).

You may only subscribe to 5 channels and only watch their videos. who will they be?:
mfbs
iianardo
3sixty5days
corporalcadet
kickthepj
(i like boys with accents? they're so creative though!)

Are you in a relationship?: nope, not interested in one either..

would you date a smoker?: yeah but no smoking in the house or car

Where is your favourite place?: my room! i love it

Are you a happy person?: have you seen me? i love life

Would you kiss the person who posted this?: smoochiesz

What would you take to the desert island? : a boat to get home eventually, my favourite youtubers and a frizbee

Do you prefer sun or snow?: sun is ok. but snow is ok too. as long as neither are extreme.

Who did you last speak to on the phone? hmmm.. one of my parents i think? or my work.

Who did you last text?: my brother

What are you doing tomorrow?: sleeping in and going to IASC class

What is your favourite flavour of potato chips?: salt and vinegar!

What size are your feet?: 9.5-10

What do you want?: yr mom. lol kidding if you know me you know what i want

What do you need?: to finish this essay i've been procrastinating

What do you remember?: trivial shit!

What do you wish?: i wish things weren't as expensive as they are

Confess: i did it. and i LIKED it.

Honesty. Do you want people to anonymously post what they REALLY Think of you? i don't really care either way?

oh noes

i'm in an unmotivated mood, which is not good
i have papers to do! eeek.
work makes me mad. it gets in the way
but i don't get enough shifts, i need money!
ughhhh!

oooh

i'm actually super bad at every game on iilwy
it's hilarious really.

two stories

i like telling stories to people on msn even when they aren't there.

airface. → dinner, then time management says:
my phon went off three times in english seminar today
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
im assuming youre earing, im just going to finish my story even though youre not here
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
so yeah it went off three times and jesse was like "is someone texting? i keep hearing a phone beep"
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
and clearly he didnt see me texting lol, i'm stealth
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
and he was like "if you are, stop it"
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
and then not even five minutes later his phone went off lol
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
and he was like "well that's embarassing"

and sometimes being on the same wavelength as my friends is awesome.

airface. → dinner, then time management says:
i want to be a teacher
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
at a private school
Samantha Bee // I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you. says:
hogwarts?
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
like hogwarts.
airface. → dinner, then time management says:
hahahahah its amazing how alike our minds re


anyway. new daily rambles today. it's processing.

oh hi

it's 5:19 am and i'm leaving my house to go to a horse show
this is silly
:)

lifestory monologue

"don't leave me alone outside,
the cascading rain leaves me with little to hide"

this band seriously completes my existence.
sooo much.

http://www.myspace.com/lifestorymonologue
do it or you're scared.

hehe

im eating potatoes and drinking orange juice
i love life.
class was cancelled today because pretty much the whole city didn't have power
it was awesome!

cultural geography

when they were building places like london and other european cities, they concentrated on making things useful and beautiful.
in canada and the us, we make things useful and cost-efficient.
that is just another reason why i want to go to the UK.
it's way prettier. fuck western society!

omg :@

it started snowing yesterday afternoon
and today afternoon it's still snowing.
will the madness never end?!!?!

lololol anyway. i've started to contact stables in the UK about a job for the summer.
the more i think about it, the more i want to do this.
the experience would be amazing and kick so much more ass than working where i work all summer again.
yeeah.

exciting things happening

my patience only stretches so far lol
[3:03:43 PM] arielface says: guess what!
[3:10:21 PM] arielface says: fine don't guess.
[3:10:28 PM] arielface says: i'm going to tell you anyway.
[3:10:36 PM] arielface says: i'm changing majors XD
[3:10:38 PM] matt massaar says: hahah

that's right kids! as of april, i'm not going to be an english language and literature major anymore.
i'm going to switch to interactive arts and science. I'm really stoked.
the class i'm most excited to take?

*IASC 2P60
Web 2.0 Content, Construction, Collaboration
(also offered as APCO 2P60)
Context and topics in web-based interactive environments, communities and social networks designed for sharing content, user interaction and collective intelligence. Blogs, videoblogs and vodcasts; peer 2 peer and consumer 2 consumer; RSS, agents and recommender systems; social networks; online communities and virtual environments; tagging, bookmarking; wikis; mashups; collaborative and open source software and working environments.
Lectures, seminar, 3 hours per week.

like... seriously? YES PLZ.

oooh and this one!
#IASC 2P97
Digital Video Art
(also offered as VISA 2P97)
Concepts of basic videography and its applications within conceptual and aesthetic studio practice. Camerawork, composition and lighting; digital video and audio editing, special effects, composing, text and titling; and DV output. Critical analysis of recent and contemporary film and video practices.
Lectures, lab, 5 hours per week.
Restriction: open to VISA (single or combined) and VISA (Honours)/BEd (Intermediate/Senior) majors until date specified in Registration guide.
Prerequisite: IASC 1F00, VISA 1P97 (minimum 60 percent) or permission of the instructor.
Note: enrolment limited to 18 students. Materials fee required. Students might need additional materials and equipment which they must supply.



i <3 university.

oh boy

my blog is all a mess right now,
but i'm going to work on it when i have time
:)
oooh css you are my friend

it doesn't get any better than this

[10:18:43 PM] Mickie says: 22 - 14
[10:18:49 PM] Mickie says: Pubescently impossible
[10:18:58 PM] Kiara says: hahaha
[10:19:01 PM] Kiara says: you wrote pube

yaaay

today is my first day of dailyrambles.
www.youtube.com/dailyrambles. i'll have my video up later :)

oh jeez

this class might make me break that no-getting-addicted-to-caffeine thing.
three hour lecture at 8am... i'm yawnin.
haha

three goals

hopefully this works out.
1. 500 subs..ish? by... summmer?
2. buy & learn guitar in the next few months
3. not get re-addicted to caffeine this semester.


sound good?