this isn't the first time I've blogged these lyrics

"Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,

And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?

So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.

It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions

And to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.

You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.

And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is

A reminder of what I'll never have

I'll never have... I'll never...

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.

But this table for one has become bearable.

I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you."

take this to heart

"all i want from you

is time to explain

i swear you don't have to be afraid

all i want from you

just give me the first chance

because second chances never matter

all i want from you

is just a little more than this

you can talk to me i promise

all i want from you

is your smile

            i couldn't lie to myself

            saying you don't mean a thing

            a year and a half long crush

            you're impossible to get over

all i want from you

is for you to understand

i'll cross my fingers and hope you can

all i want from you

is for you to hold my hand

run your fingers down my arm

that's all i want from you

just take this to heart"

thank you charles leslie, for these words.

because they are so simple and so amazing and they make me think

and I have hope. a lot of hope for the future. i know it's going to be amazing. I just have to wait it out. and i know i can because it'll be worth it. I don't know what "it" is, or will be, but it'll be something. and it will be worth it. i am excited for the future. so much. and i'm going to love it.